Heart and Bail Money

We live in a microwave society. Everything can be accessed at the push of a button or a click of the mouse. Things are very instant. Sometimes, I feel like a microwave Christian. It's like I ask God for something and I expect it to happen right then and there. There are times when I want God to pull a rabbit out of His hat and have just what I asked for available to me right then. I know, God does not work like that. He does not grant wishes like a genie. Nor does He have a deck of cards that He can perform great mind-blowing tricks with. The Book of Isaiah says: "They that wait on the Lord, will renew their strength" (Is. 40:31). As Biblical prophets go, Isaiah seemed to know his stuff but I'm going to go ahead and say it: waiting SUCKS! I have to remember that sometimes waiting for something is God's way of pruning me and preparing me for what WILL come. Waiting is a test of will power that sometimes, I don't think I have. Waiting on something to happen ...

I'm a bit of a flake. I'll admit it. I'll say that I'm going to do something and somehow, some way, I don't do it. Sometimes I can't even give an answer to a question where a simple yes or no will suffice. If I'm honest about why that is, the bottom line answer is, like I said, I'm a flake. There are a whole host of other reasons why this might be the case ranging from me not wanting to be bothered to the tragedy of being so overwhelmed that I feel like I'm really going to go insane if I do something or if I give a simple yes or no. Last week, I had a friend call me and text me and instant message me a question that could very easily been answered with a simple yes or no. I couldn't do it. Yes, I continued to randomly post things on my social media pages where we were friends and she could see that I was posting but not answering. That for me did not require much thought. It didn't make me feel like if I said one thing and did another that ...

It seems like forever since I've done this. Life has been hectic. I'm still trying to figure out if it has been a good hectic or not. I do know that depression sucks. For about a week and a half, I was so overwhelmed by it that the thought of getting out of bed caused anxiety. When I did get out of bed, putting on clean clothes was a major accomplishment. It sucked the life out of me for a solid week and a half. Yes, I still deal with it but I'm learning to savor the little moments that are joyfilled. Depression can sometimes overshadow those small moments. There have been some GREAT things going on in my life though that I want to share with you, Here's a list: 1. I got a job! It is an assignment that will last until the end of the year. While it is only a few months, it is a job that could lead to a longer lasting job and this job will allow me to help people help themselves. 2. I've been asked to be a guest speaker for a young adult speaking series in the fal...

I offended someone this week for being concerned for their well being. Sadly, they did not see it that way. My assumption is that they took it as me being nosey or trying to be all in their business. Whatever the reason they were so offended by it that I got an angry phone call full of loaded words and insults and a subsequent unfriending on Facebook. This story is not uncommom. Often times when we are offended or if someone has made us mad, one of the first things we do is go to our social media avenues and unfriend, unfollow, and block the offending party. WE. ALL. DO. IT. We do not take the time to pick up the phone (other than to go to our social media pages) call the other person and TALK it out. It's unfortunate. Great relationships end and can seemingly never be repaired because of our actions on social media.  While I am not upset or hurt by the actions of the person who called me with colorful words then unfriended me, it made me glad that God won't just push a...